onegoodchild

Happiness is like finding your way home.

the sound of a punctured life

is ringing in my head.

This morning I rode into sunshine. The air conditioning in the bus was refreshingly cool, the sun was warming up the day outside. I messaged a friend whom I hadn’t had time to catch up with these past couple of months, he chirps back a cheery reply over sms- and I tell him,

I’m doing well too… Good to be alive! :)

I get off my bus. I have vague plans to help a friend today, and the intended errand takes me away from my usual route to work. I drop two bus-stops before my usual stop. I brisked walked once off the bus, each step I took was filled with purpose, it honestly was. Only the red lights at the pedestrian crossing had reason to slow me down in my tracks.

And then that sound. Like a clap of thunder. The two men standing beside me recoil and walk off in the direction we came from. They re-circled their steps- they still want to head the direction I was headed for – but something ahead was hindering their path. My eyes search ahead.

I thought it was a traffic cone. For some reason, the bright orange colour registered. Something on the gravelled road. No, the orange something was someone. Then I realised it was a man. It was a man who was flattened by a huge industrial truck that had tried to beat the lights. The man was lying not 1 metre away from the bulbous tyres.

His misshapened head kept my cold attention. I feel hot, and yet I feel cold. It was all black hair, and fresh dark red life dotted the gravel – the splatter makes a straight line, marking the crushing impact of lost life. I wanted to walk away, and yet the incident was far too bizaare for me to just shrug it off and turn away. Someone just died before me.

The bicycle he rode became him. Only one wheel portruded from his distressed form on the road- one wheel, not spinning, flush against him, pressing into him, and he’s pressed upon the road.

I don’t consider it a coincidence that I celebrated life literally moments ago, before witnessing a life put out in front of me in such a gruesome manner. I’m not sure yet though, what this is supposed to make me do, but it is a call for some kind of action.

I think he was a foreign man. He must have a family somewhere else, folks still not made aware of the freak accident that claimed him. The road, someone’s actions, his own haste and his abandoned mind when he biked across that crossing took his life.

And there is a reason why I was there and then.

If you are reading this now, I’d say good on you. I’m immensely glad we’re alive.

Filed under: moronics

major down-time

Approaching truck. Moving vehicles all around. Lights. Truck is going to run me down.
The voice in my head slurs.

Filed under: daily grind, moronics

The Anti-Friday-13th

And Friday the 13th, just isn’t Friday the 13th when your luck doesn’t change.

I believe that today, my luck just turned for the better. Its a start.

The world is not ideas, rich boy; the world is no place for dreamers and their dreams; the world little Snotnose; is things. Things and their makers rule the world… For things, the country is run. Not for People.

-Midnight’s Children, Salman Rushdie.

sis in york

Filed under: daily grind, moronics

You might whisper to God

You can hold a conversation with your God anywhere. A serious conversation might even be possible on the first not-so-crowded evening train home. First you lower your head and walk into the cabin, ever so still. Then you walk towards a random person and the good Samaritan will stand up and allow you some peace and comfort while he stands most preposterously in front of you, parading his gentleman manners.

Anyhow. You might continue your conversation with God now. You clasp your hands and the folds of skin around your eyes gather. Your lips murmur and your spirit, if visible seems to hang on a beam. Nobody knows what hangs on the other side. You- the one who is the object of our scrutiny now, you belong in a column on the daily newspaper, the one which takes random shots of real people. Today, your headline would be, ‘Sad Bizarro.’ You enter what we call a prayer.

We wonder what you pray about.

You are in serious, serious conversation. It migt even be termed a conference, considering the situation.

Before he knows it, the self righteous good Samaritan looks up, and finds you gone. Where’s the lady gone? The bystanders shrug. Not that anyone has seen anyone on this evening journey home. No one ever does. The lady who muttered to herself? The one who looked distressed? No one registered her. The travesty.

The good Samaritan -who gave up his seat to an old and incoherent lady who spoke in low tones to everyone- begins to feel irritation.

His irritation reaches a boil. He marches to an empty seat. Clasps his hands, and joins the conversation with God.

Filed under: moronics, quirks, written word

Insidious dark under a breast pocket

Unpeel your heart. Notice the left valve: tepid as spring and nuanced as a pacemaker should be. The right valve you put your ear to, hear its voluminous ruminations- as steadily passionate as a hot air balloon entering dusk. Slip your fingers lightly to the back of this fine carriage- finger the bumps of uncertainty, the strong veins of spirit. Your heart- warm, moist, thriving.

But lo and behold- sight the dark capillaries nudging in at the bottom; their rust stains the purest of red, their unknowing dark casts a shadow over your X-ray card. Cure your heart, the doc advises.

Filed under: moronics, quirks, written word